It's been quite a while since I last posted anything on my blog. Lots of things happened and life had been a very tough journey so far. Currently,I'm in NUS Science Faculty doing my major in Chemistry. Never wanted to do this. All this while, I've been interested in being a paediatrician since my passion has always been little children. But along the way, I found out I could fully specialize in children if I pursue a career in Early Childhood Education. And the best part is I don't have to go through the long, tough and torturous journey of being a doctor before I can specialize in children.

I told this to my parents but they don't seem to think very highly of it. Maybe because it's not being offered in the local univerities. They told me that with my results could easily attain a much better degree, and thus a better pay. But I don't care about the money. All I want is to pursue my dreams and passion. My dad suggested that I take a general degree first and then take a second degree in early childhood after I graduate. I tried my best to endure but I couldn't.

For me, I give my very best in anything I do -- if I have a passion in it. Right now, day after day, I'm beginning to hate Chemistry because I don't have the passion for it. To make it even worse, Chemistry in uni is so abstract. And the thing is I don't even have the motivation to try to understand what the lecturer is explaining. I already drop one of my Chemistry core modules. I just couldn't do it.

I wish someone could help me. I wish someone could convince my parents to allow me to pursue my dreams. Alll I want know is to get a diploma in childhood education and then go on to get a degree. I feel disturbed. Mentally disturbed. How do I solve this?