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2010-07-09T10:57:00.002+08:00

I AM BORED OUT OF MY MIND!!! I have no job, no money, no nothing! grr! And every time I go out, I SPEND! This sucks! My bank account is running low! Speaking of which, I should be checking whether I have tuition assignments.. But I'm so lazy.... And I'm not confident of my teaching skills.. Aiyah.. I'm so bored but I don't want to do anything.. Ironic!

Modules Information will be out today at 5pm.. Should start planning my modules! I shall get my wednesday free! And pray that I don't have 8am lectures! stupid NUS! why can't it be located infront of my house! It's all the way to the west! couldn't they put lectures at 9 or something?! pfft!

And my damn W595 is making all sorts of problem for me! Everytime I slide it up fully, the screen turns black. Everytime I want to message someone, I have to slide it slowly till I can see only half of the 1,2,3 buttons.. That's so dumb. My hand always cramps up! -__- And the thing is I just got it fixed for another problem just about 3 weeks ago! that is $30 out of my already empty pocket! I WANT A NEW PHONE!! ):

I'm alone at home.. Hazeeq's schooling.. Shara's busy with her upcoming YEP trip and silat.. My parents are forever working til late hours.. Man.. Life is booooo-ring..
And that's why I'm starting to blog again.. Because I have ABSOLUTELY nothing to do!

2010-03-31T11:48:00.000+08:00

Argh! I was doing some research on the computer when somebody knocked on the door! I never like to see who is at the door so I just ignored it. But the person was persistent! I got scared and kept quite till the person walked away. When I open the door, there was a note saying that the person wanted to deliver my driving license but no one was at home! so now I have to go down to the post office to collect! oh my god... I almost shot myself! hahah.. serve me right! see lar... oh well! :D it's part and parcel of life! There is a reason behind everything that happens.. (:

2010-03-22T21:22:00.002+08:00

What a long day. Hmm.. Now staying up the whole night to do my lab report that I haven't even started. And it's 12 pages. I can so forget about sleeping tonight.

Man, I entered the guys' toilet today in NUS SDE. An misplaced him ring and he thinks most probably he left it there when he came on friday. He seem so sad that he lost it. So I decided to rush there before my 8.30am test to look for it. I felt like an idiot going into the toilet saying, "Hello? Anyone there?!" I said it like 3 times just to make sure there is really no one inside. Obviously I don't like to see a guy doing things in the toilet so early in the morning! though I'm not saying that I don't mind looking at a guy doing things other times of the day lar.. Hahah.. But I know it matters to An. I don't mind looking silly for him.. (: Unfortunately I didn't find the ring.

I had a chem test at 8.30am. Wanted to come early to study my last 3 chapters and review the rest. But I decided the ring was more important to me. The test was horrible. Didn't matter whether I studied or not. I realised I didn't know how to apply the concepts that I revised. Bad. Need to start all over and do practice questions. Sheesh. Spent my whole entire weekend studying, till I neglected my 12 pages lab report which is due tmr!

Speaking about lab report, I should start doing. sigh. But wanna blog first. Last week, I went to An's house to teach his niece. His mom cooked superb chicken rice. She stuffed me till I was so bloated till I could barely walked! XD When I wanted to go home, it started to rain. An wanted to sent me off but he forgot to bring along an umbrella. He was so sweet to use his hand to shelter my head.. aww.. ((: thanks, an..

Oh man! I'm totally craving for the chocolate chips bubble tea near his house! I WANT! shall get it tmr! I end my lab early at 1pm.. heheh..

Argh! back to lab report!

2010-03-12T21:03:00.003+08:00

oh my god.... I finally passed my driving.. It seems like I've been waiting for it my whole life.. I feel as though there is a huge burden lifted off my shoulder.. Thank god.. (:

My world had just gone by
Always darkened skies
There was no reason to try
Never could fly

Now I'm tired of searching
And wondering why
Its not really all that, much far
Reaching out for stars

Time to reach out
Time to be who I am
Who I am

Finally, I believe
My dreams will unfold
Its like being touched by an angel
A brand new beginning
Its amazing
This is, a moment, I will remember

Finally, I can feel
Heaven on earth
Its like being touched by an angel
My world is changing
I'm living out loud
Feels like, I've been, touched by an angel above

Oooo

By an angel
Ooooo

Living out loud
Feels like, I've been, touched by an angel above

2010-03-05T20:55:00.002+08:00

Argh! Don't you just hate the feeling when you're rushing home to catch your favourite show, but everything just seems to be going wrong? when you're on the bus home, the bus is caught in a traffic jam because of the an accident ahead? when the bus driver just seems to drive the bus ever so slowly? when all the traffic lights suddenly turns red the instant the bus approaches it? when people just seem to take their own sweet time alighting and boarding the bus?

Doesn't all that just makes you wanna scream? Don't you just have this insane urge to scream at the top of your lungs? Well, I did.

2010-03-02T20:24:00.004+08:00

Urgh! Today is such a lousy day! Thanks to my MOST BELOVED LSM teaching assistant (TA), I have to go back to school tmr to redo my practical! IT'S MY FREE DAY FOR GOD'S SAKE! She's this china person who can barely speak english and obviously doesn't understand a shit about life science.

Bloody hell. She can't give clear instructions due to her poor english but when people ask her to repeat the instruction in mandarin, she stubbornly repeats it in english! Like what is her problem?! People are trying to make her life easier by asking her to repeat in mandarin, but NO! She just have to be stuck up and show off that she's a china girl who can understand and (barely)speak english!

And I swear she never had a degree in LS! she don't even know basic stuff like what is the minimum amount needed to put in a cuvette! Then because of her wrong instruction, yunguan and I had to repeat the whole thing again. This happened last week! This week was a different story. And definitely the last straw. Yunguan and I were about to start this quite tedious experiment and the TA said that whatever happens, we are NOT to repeat the experiment. So then we continued doing the experiment. Then near the end part of the experiment, some stupid idiot in the lab went to change the amount in the preset dispenser for one of the chemicals. So we, being the unlucky ones, suffered the brunt of that meaningless action! There was too little chemical in the test tubes. The main purpose of the chemical was to stop the reaction by diluting it but the TA said that there is reaction still so we have to find a way to top up the amount without going over the value. That's like asking us to do the impossible! what, are we like superman or something?!

Then we just ignore those set of test tubes and did our second set of the same experiment. When the TA saw we didn't do anything to our previous test tubes, she scolded ask and said that we should have repeated the whole thing! ARGH! DIDN'T SHE SAY AT THE START OF THE EXPERIMENT TO NOT REPEAT IT, NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS?! I felt like strangling her!

Then she didn't even guide us how to solve the problem we had at hand! She just left us to fend for ourselves! She's the TEACHING ASSISTANT! She's supposed to ASSIST us!! ARGH! Then yunguan and I tried to top up the chemical we were short of. But when we came back to our lab bench, the lab technician was clearing our expt! The lab technician realized what happened and offered to give us extra time to redo. But we were so frustrated already. we had no mood to do anymore. The deadline of 6pm to submit the lab report was approaching. Both of us just resigned to our fate and started to explain what had happened from the start. The nice lab technician talked to the chief TA and our professor to let us come back tmr to redo everything.

We decided to redo because of the heavy weightage of the lab of 15% contributing to our total grade. Then yunguan started to tear up and that set me off too.. We were so upset over the whole thing. I HATE THE TA! She still tried to defend herself to the chief TA! She tried to puch all the blame to us! But WHATEVER! as long as I don't lose all the 15%, I'm happy.

thanks to her, I HATE LSM MORE THAN CHEM! right now, I would LOVE to go back to chem lab!

2010-02-28T09:24:00.002+08:00

Argh.. So many deadlines coming up.. I'm dying...

Just finish with my Japanese History essays..

Next up:
SE1101E Essay 1 (4 March)--- Week 7
GEK1055 performance analysis (12 March)--- Week 8
countless of chemistry lab reports --- Week 8, 9, 10
SE1101E tutorial presentation --- Week 9
GEK1055 Co-facilitation --- Week 10
SE1101E Individual Response paper --- Week 11
SE1101E Field Study Report --- Week 11
GEK1055 Group Project --- Week 12

HAHAH! I'm as good as dead.

2009-10-20T11:35:00.002+08:00

It's been quite a while since I last posted anything on my blog. Lots of things happened and life had been a very tough journey so far. Currently,I'm in NUS Science Faculty doing my major in Chemistry. Never wanted to do this. All this while, I've been interested in being a paediatrician since my passion has always been little children. But along the way, I found out I could fully specialize in children if I pursue a career in Early Childhood Education. And the best part is I don't have to go through the long, tough and torturous journey of being a doctor before I can specialize in children.

I told this to my parents but they don't seem to think very highly of it. Maybe because it's not being offered in the local univerities. They told me that with my results could easily attain a much better degree, and thus a better pay. But I don't care about the money. All I want is to pursue my dreams and passion. My dad suggested that I take a general degree first and then take a second degree in early childhood after I graduate. I tried my best to endure but I couldn't.

For me, I give my very best in anything I do -- if I have a passion in it. Right now, day after day, I'm beginning to hate Chemistry because I don't have the passion for it. To make it even worse, Chemistry in uni is so abstract. And the thing is I don't even have the motivation to try to understand what the lecturer is explaining. I already drop one of my Chemistry core modules. I just couldn't do it.

I wish someone could help me. I wish someone could convince my parents to allow me to pursue my dreams. Alll I want know is to get a diploma in childhood education and then go on to get a degree. I feel disturbed. Mentally disturbed. How do I solve this?

2009-03-07T09:45:00.002+08:00

gosh.. The day is over.. Honestly, I didn't really feel anything.. I wasn't scared or nervous.. Maybe I was too disappointed over my results over O level results 2 years ago.. so no one really had high expectation of me this time round.. didn't feel pressured.. I was subconsciously prepared for the worst.. thankfully, my name appeared on the screen under students with 3 distinctions.. (: really grateful.. Thank god.. I had a B for my last core subject.. (: not too bad.. AAAB.. congrats to all who did really well! and to those who didn't reach their expectations, the results on the slip do not rule your life.. make the best of the opportunities presented to you, for you decide how to live your life, not your results.. everything happens for a reason.. just believe in yourself!

2009-02-27T15:10:00.003+08:00

Oh man.. I've been so busy these past few days.. forgive me all for not updating! Okay..

Latest updates:

I got a brand new Samsung i780!
I got a new number too.. not too happy about it though.. Check my msn personal message for my new number, people!
I have free unlimited SMSes! YES!
Still doing relief teaching.. I've taught Eng, Maths, PE (Forever playing wacko!), Malay (Oh my god! ME?! Teaching Malay?!), Music, Art, Science etc..
Still volunteering at KKH.. The children are SO adorable! I love them! (Please! I'm not a paedophile!)
Got selected to attend a teambuilding camp by National Youth Council at NACLI
Did lots of blogskins.. Check them out at http://www.blogskins.com/.. My user ID is brokenup18!

Okay.. That's all at the moment.. Jeez.. I feel so sleepy at the moment.. Need some sleep.. zzzz..

2009-02-17T08:33:00.000+08:00

Someone, shoot me.

2009-02-03T11:01:00.003+08:00

It's been a while since I last blogged.. Lots of things has happened, of course.. Currently, I'm mainly doing volunteering at various organisations.. I also do relief teaching but it's really uncertain.. Depends on the number of teachers absent on a particular day.. I'm happy doing it though.. (: It's really flexible and all so I can always decide to take up the teaching job for the day. I'm also a "housewife" at the moment.. I'm not saying I'm married or anything but I mostly stay at home,with all the housework to do.. hahah.. Well, at least I can cook a wider variety of dishes now! Good training for my future huh? XD I spend lots of time reading too.. The latest book I read was PS. I love you be Cecelia Ahern.. Gosh.. I cried buckets! Really touched me.. I recommend everyone to read it, especially if you need a good cry.. alright then.. Till next time!

2009-01-18T13:14:00.002+08:00

Life has been really hectic and stressful this week.. Lots of problem and all.. But I'm glad everything is settled! (: I'm doing what I love now.. Really happy now.. One piece of advice: Follow your passion. Never do something just for the money. You'll be miserable. Don't live up to the expectations of others but your own. Because in the end, you'll be living with those decisions you make, not others. ((:

2009-01-05T17:15:00.005+08:00

Oh my god.. (: These few days have been unbelievable! Hahah! Whee! I feel like I've gotten a bit of freedom! Oh my!

These are the stuff that i got/did since Saturday:
1. Zen creative mosaic 4 GB! (OH. MY. GOD. FINALLY.)
2. A new bank account with my own ATM card! (Whee!)
3. My provisional driving license, PDL (I can drive on the road!)

These may not be big things to some people but for me, it means FREEDOM! hahah! Man, I've never been happier! (: I'm really really contented.. Now, I shall quickly find a job and pay my dad for the Zen mosaic! whee! hahah! till next time!

2008-12-27T11:26:00.007+08:00

I came across this beautiful poem on a card when I was shopping with my sis for a birthday present yesterday at Precious Thoughts located at Tampines mall.. It tickled and warmed my heart at the same time. (: It's a card from a husband to his wife.. Full of honesty.. Simple yet the poem captures the love he has for his wife..

Once there was this nice guy.
A nice guy, really.
And he met this girl.
An incredible girl -truly amazing.
So naturally the guy falls
head over heels in love with her,
and pretty soon they're picking out
china patterns and rings
and there's a wedding
and the starry-eyed couple
rides off into what will surely
be a rosy future

Okey, so now some time has passed
and the guy is living in that future
He's still married to this girl
but now their life includes a lot more stuff -
appliances and bills and loads of laundry
and home repair projects
But between all the to-dos and have-tos,
there are these moments
when the guy stops for a minute
and looks around him.

He looks at his wife,
who is still truly amazing.
He looks at their life together,
all the ways and different
directions it's grown,
he looks at all
the responsibilities he's got,
and he thinks to himself,
so, this is my life

And then he thinks,
I am one helluva lucky guy.

I love you, darling..

Isn't the poem just truly amazing? (:

2008-12-02T10:57:00.022+08:00

Yesterday was prom night! I was so excited and panicky actually! hahah! I called fizah over to help me out yesterday afternoon.. And my mom took time off from her work to help me too! whee! It was her birthday yesterday! Sorry, mama.. Couldn't celebrate your birthday.. ): But we'll celebrate it when shara comes home from Hong Kong.. Anyway, it was great fun dressing up! Hahah! Shall show you the final me! ((:

Fizah, my mom and I had so much fun! hahah! We were joking around, playing with the scarf cause we're unsure how to go about doing it.. hahah! But it turned out quite cool! hahah! Secret: Fizah is the first person to come over to my house, with reasons other than a raya visit! HAHAH! My mom and fizah hit off pretty well and they kept teasing me! XD

I left house at 5pm and took the train to city hall MRT station.. on the way everyone was staring! I just felt so weird and embarrassed! I feel so overdressed! then I couldn't find the hotel! I called aishah, hakeym and lubna for direction but they weren't too sure.. In the end I called my dad (why didn't I think of that earlier?!) and he gave me specific directions.. And I found Marina Mandarin! whee! Gosh! I was early.. First few to arrive.. hahah.. I got a rose when I entered.. Nice touch! I love it! and it matches my outfit! hahah! I met up with my classmates and took lots of photos! HAHAH! and aishah! man! She's so funky and cool! I love her outfit! My picture with her and sye yuet was one of my favourite photo!

Well, the prom was not really up to my expectation but it was fine.. (: Thanks, SC.. oh! I love the door gift, it was "sweet".. hahah! literally sweet! (:

I snapped lots of prictures! And you can see them at http://i288.photobucket.com/albums/ll174/flowergirl_twins/Prom/.. ((: pictures say a thousand words!

Here is a slideshow of the highlights of prom!

till next time! tata! ((:

2008-11-27T16:18:00.004+08:00

Here's an African poem from Manja Magazine November Issue..

A black man says to a white man:

"When I was born, I black

When I grow up, I black

When I go in sun, I black

When I cold, I black

When I scared, I black

When I sick, I black

When I bruise, I black

And when I die, I still black

But you white folks..

When you born, you pink

When you grow up, you white

When you go in sun, you red

When you cold, you blue

When you scared, you yellow

When you sick, you green

When you bruised, you purple

And when you die, you grey

So, who you calling coloured?"

2008-11-18T19:26:00.002+08:00

OH. MY. GOD. Gosh! I love this feeling! A's over!! Argh!! It was liberating! Whee! Shall tell you what I did after my last paper! Liyana forgot that shw had something on so the 3 of us (baz, liyana and me) only met up at 3.. before that, I went over to VJ and met Ana, my old time best friend.. We went to geylang to get some stuff for her mom and we headed to tampines mall to catch a movie! Before that, we got lost at Kampong Melayu! hahah! We couldn't find the bus stop! Then suddenly, Ana realized it was a ONE-WAY street! hahah! So retarded! Then we finally found it and we reached TM in one piece! We watched High School Musical 3! It was a perfect ending! i could really relate to it, considering that we just finished our last paper and finally graduating... ((: I love the song "Can I have this dance?".. It's the song playing at the moment.. (:

Anyway, Ana and I went to Long John's for lunch! Delicious! But prices went up! So ex! Oh well! It was worth it! I must pamper myself.. hahah! Then, I went home and changed and met Baz and Liyana.. We went SHOPPING! But window shopping only.. couldn't afford anything.. hahah! But it was great fun!

look at the 3 princesses... so pretty! ((: hahah! ok.. I'll be back.. ((: see you! miss you..

2008-11-15T22:19:00.002+08:00

Wow.. One more paper.. It seems so surreal.. I can't believe it.. And it'll be freedom!!!ARGH! I'm going out with Liyana darling and Baz dear on my last paper! Can't wait!! Whee!! We'll be going to downtown east to watch a movie! hopefully HSM3 is still on!! I really wanna watch it! And miss you..

2008-10-13T16:02:00.002+08:00

Wow... Such an eventful day for me.. (:

Today was my last official day in school.. Kinda sad.. ): We had a farewell assembly today.. So touching.. And I realised I hold many sweet memories close to my heart.. So many things have happened since I first stepped into the school.. It started out with pure hate.. but then, everyone knows that you will end up loving anything that you hate and hating anything that you love.. so it's the same for me.. Tj has been a home for me in more ways than I can ever remember.. Slowly, my love for the school grew from time to time with each passing day.. (oh my! sounds like some lyrics from a song) hahah! I cried so hard during the assembly.. I was even crying when I was laughing at the skit put up by the Gp tutors.. I didn't know I love the school so much.. And when I sang the school song, my goodness, a fountain started flowing (biological one, if you know what I mean)..

After A's, I shall do an entry dedicating to everyone I know in Tj.. (: But for now, I miss the J1s already, especially... ): You guys have been the one who made my life in TJ more bearable, more momorable and more lovely.. I love you guys so much! Special mention to my dear Liyana, Baz and Taufiq.. the 3 of you have been my pillar of strength and hope throughout my year 2 life.. and also to my kayaking team.. what can I say? you guys are the best!
((: *hugs* thank you everyone for the wonderful 2 years! I love you!

2008-09-30T16:42:00.002+08:00

Somehow, you just make me feel inferior and stupid.. and it just breaks my spirit. I'm trying to collect the broken pieces again. I never meant to avoid you.. But I feel discouraged everytime I'm around you.. and if I keep feeling like this, I'll never do well in A's.. It most probably was not intentional on your part, but the way you carry yourself, your actions and words, makes me feel like I'll never succeed.. I may be over sensitive, but I can't control them.. I'm sorry.. Again, it was never my intention to just shut you out.. But this is the only way I can slowly fix back my broken spirit and give my best for this last stretch of the race.. Once again, I apologise..

2008-09-20T16:09:00.002+08:00

Look at these water foorprints.. Expresses how I feel at the moment.. I made an impact and left footprints in the lives of my juniors, especially kayaking ones.. but how long will last? My presence will disappear and in my juniors' eyes, I would have never existed.. It is like the water footprint.. They may leave a mark at the moment but soon enough, they will evaporate and will forever disappear.. Isn't it sad? ):

I feel like I'm not needed anymore.. They've moved on and gotten closer.. without me.. I'm just the past.. The history.. maybe, I was never a good captain to start with.. I was timid, a coward and never dared to venture out.. I stuck to the rules and because of this reason, kayaking never did go far.. but now with Jerrold and Baohui taking the lead, Kayaking is rising and stronger as ever.. And I was never a part of the process.. It saddens me alot.. I'm sorry, guys.. I shouldn't have been the one to start kayaking.. It should have been you guys.. Soar up high and bring kayaking to greater heights.. Take care..

2008-08-01T22:21:00.004+08:00

whee! Ok! it's been two weeks since my birthday! and see my presents!

From my lovely kakak azliyana and syah, my best best friend! (:

From Nabilah darling! (:

From san, my dear brother! By the way, I love the saying on the diary! (:

I love this quote.. It's on the first page of the diary that san gave me..

Thank you so much guys! you guys totally rock!

Anyway, last weekend my cousin got married! Sweet! I love it! Shan't elaborate much since a picture says a thousand words! Whee!

Oh! Look at this cupcake! So nice right?! Dinie gave it to me! Coz it's her birthday!! whee! hahah! All the malays got it too! cool! Though it's supposed to be a "H" not a "Y" in my name, but it's alright! It's delicious! ((:

Anyway..
HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY, DINIE!!! (((:
May all your dreams and wishes come true...

2008-08-01T20:53:00.004+08:00

A) People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.
B) Tag eight people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.

1. What are your reasons for having a LJ?
-LJ? Huh? What's that??
2. What do you do before bedtime?
-Erm.. Stay awake? (Duh!)
3. What will your dream wedding be like?
-Ah.. With my husband by my side, it'll be my dream wedding! So basically anything! (So sweet..)
4. What is the city of your dreams and why?
-I don't know.. Hmm.. But I prefer a relaxing life like Kampong! Whee! (Alamak.. so old fashioned)
5. Are you an introvert or extrovert?
-Well, that depends on the person I'm with, I guess.. But generally, yes..
6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
-I think it would be being loved by someone.. But nothing can be more perfect then having both don't you think? (: (Agree!)
7. Do you trust easily?
-Trust? Hmm.. After I get to know the person better I guess..
8. What person, dead or alive, is your role model?
-What person? You mean there's different kind of person?! *shocking* Lousy English! hahah! No role models..
9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
-Yes.. maybe.. I don't know.. Since when life was only full of happiness?
10. When's the last time you had fun?
-Today! I have fun EVERYDAY! WHEE!
11. Is being tagged fun?
-YUP! Unless they are bitchy tags! I hate those kind! Which was why I deleted this whole blog late last year.. The person is so annoying! EEEE! Made me waste my tears for nothing!
12. How do you see yourself?
-Cute, adorable, lovable and SHAMELESS! (looking at this answer, you'll get it!)
13. Who are currently the most important people to you?
-My dearest friends and juniors in school! especially my dearest bestest friend!
14. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
-Hakeym is great! (: Helped me out so much when I just entered this school.. And can you believe it! My cousin was trying to "promote" him to me! hahah! BUT he's really nice and religious and everything..
15. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
-Married but poor, I guess.. At least you'll have someone to share your joys and sorrow with... (Awww..)
16. How many children do you want to have, if any?
-A football team! hahah! Kidding! For me, 4.. But I'll consider my husband's preference too.. Who knows, he might want like 10 or something! hahah! (Ooh! Too potent huh? hahah!)
17.What's better, to give or to receive?
-Give. But with sincerity of course!
18. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
-Is that even possible?! But if 2 guys fall in love with me simultaneously, well, that's no surprise! I'm SOOOO irresistable! hahah! (Perasan..)
19. What would you do if you (or your girlfriend) became pregnant unexpectedly?
-WHAT?! ARE YOU CRAZY?! (Cool, man.. relax.. It's just a question..)
20. What are you waiting for right now?
-The right guy! (right..)
Tagged: Syah, Shane, Cherylnn, Farhan

2008-07-19T11:10:00.007+08:00

Last year, my birthday was the worst I ever had. Almost no one remembered it. It was a total contrast from my secondary school and it was just shocking. It turned out to be a nightmare birthday for me.. So i wasn't expecting much this year for my birthday yesterday.. Oh boy.. Was I wrong.. (:

Well, on the night before my birthday, 17th July, I didn't stay up till 12 mn.. I was exhausted because of the really long day I had which lasted till 11.. When I woke up the next morning, I had 12 messages waiting for me on my phone! So cool! (: I was so surprised! hahah! I went to school as per normal.. Then Serena came to give me my present.. Sweet stuff! I loved it..

Then, Taufiq called, asking me to come to the marque.. I had to pass him the flu medication cause he was really sick.. Poor thing.. I walked there with Serena.. Hahah! Guess what? The TA girls and Taufiq were there and they sang me a birthday song... So embarrassing! but it was great! Taufiq gave me a BAG of presents.. And every present had a meaning to it.. sweet!

There was a maths test yesterday and I totally forgot about it! So I asked Izyan for the Maths data booklet! Luckily, she had one with her! I didn't study for the test but it was doable.. (: yay! Since my day ended really late the night before, I didn't do my Chem specimen paper and my maths tutorial! And I'm really lucky because the tutors didn't go through at all so I didn't get scolded! ((((:

After collecting our result slips, I accompanied Serena to the library while waiting for the bus to come.. Then Samuel called Serena, asking the both of us to come down to the marque area.. When we were walking there, I saw a cake! OH my god! I was so happy! My class celebrated my birthday! Even Mr Hsu! Suzanne, Serena, Pamelyn, Cherlynn, Yun Hui, Elis, Fang Yun, Shirlyn, Shee Ping, Samuel, Qin Kai, Shane, Roy, Vincent, Zhi Hao, Han Yang, Lap Kan, Shan Zhi, Ping Chiang, Teck Kian, Min Young, Devang, Nikunj, Kunaal! Thank you so much you guys! I love you guys so much! I never got a cake before from my class even at Cedar! Whee! It was fantastic! And you guys knew I don't like berries! Hahah! Thanks! YAY! :D

But then, Atiqah called me because the bus was leaving for woodlands! I ran like crazy to the bus! Hahah! I sat alone with my presents on the bus.. Taufiq was sitting in front feeling sick so he slept.. Then slowly, he start to slide down.. I wanted to snap a picture oif him looking like that but then I felt mean.. hahah! Lucky Taufiq! Or I would have posted it on my blog! hahah! Kidding! Then Aishah and Maziah started to sing a birthday song for me in the bus and everyone started to sing along! YAY! Thank you!! ((:

We got to Woodlands Library for the malay debate.. Then we went to the auditorium and the debate started.. The competition was really intense but generally I thought TJ's argument was much stronger and convincing.. Then, while waiting for the results, my dear sister Fizah came! YAY! and she gave me this:

It's my full name in Arabic! So awesome! Whoa! No wonder Taufiq I asked me for my full name the other time! (((: Whee! I love you, Fizah! Then The results was out! TJ WON!!!!!! YAY!!! :DDDD Atiqah got best speaker for the finals! Nabilah got the best overall speaker and Dinie got best speaker for one of the debates! whoa! The whole team is made up of best speakers! Yay! (: Congratulations to the debaters! I'm so lucky coz TJ won on my birthday!

We took lots of pictures! And I got lots of birthday wishes from the seniors too! hahah! ((: It was fantastic! After all the photo taking, we went out of the audi to get some light refreshment provided for us.. Then suddenly, the whole TJ community sang a birthday song for me! It was so LOUD! Whoa! Syafiq from RJ heard and he wished me happy birthday too.. ((: Then they sang another one for Mariam too cause it was her birthday too!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MARIAM! ((:
May all your dreams and wishes come true!
Semoga selalu diberkati Allah!

Then, Baz, Farah, Atiqah, Syaz and Liyana presented me with a photo album!! Argh! And all the memories I had with them and the rest of MCS were inside! I was totally blown away! I didn't expect it at all! It was filled with wonderful and sweet memories! (: I actually cried when I look at all the pictures.. (: I love you guys so much.. *big hug* Thank you so much! We took so much pictures! And I felt so loved! :D Here's a preview of it!

Sadly, I couldn't stay for dinner with them.. I had to be home before Maghrib (one of the night prayers) cause I had another celebration waiting for me at home.. ((: When, I reached home we had Canadian Pizza for dinner! Whee! AND my parents bought for my sister and me an Oreo Cheesecake from Secret Recipe! And our names were also on the cake for the first time ever! so nice!!! I'm so lucky today because earlier today, I was just telling Serena how much I wanted to it oreo cheesecake for my birthday! Hahah! Lucky Me!

Then my sister went out with our seniors, Kak Huda and Ustazah Aishah! They brought us to the Night Festival at the National Museum: Dancing Sky! It was beautiful! It started at 9 and lasted till 11 pm.. Here are snap shots of it! ((:

We waited for our dad to pick us up and in the end, we only reached home at 1.15am! Latest I've ever stayed out!

It was the best birthday ever! I couldn't ask for a better birthday! I'm actually glad that I'm in TJ and not VJ.. Because I would not have a birthday like this in VJ.. ((: I would have never thought that I'll spend my worst and best birthday in TJ! I love everyone! Thank you for the most fantastic birthday ever!

Birthday Wishers: Taufiq, Nabilah, Syah, Liyana (longest message ever! XD), Edwin, Juan Zhen, Si Ying, Jerrold, Hanis, Samantha, Athirah, Madeline, Queenie, Xiao Wei, Farah, Raudha, Farah (J2), Raudha, 05/07, Felicia, Fifa, Aisyah, Suhana, Su, Kak Azliyana, Jia Yee, Arif, Fizah, Syafiq, Aishah, Maziah, MCS community, Feesh, Shahidah, Kak Huda, Ustazah Aishah and everyone else who I didn't mention! Thank you, you guys! *hugs and kisses!*

By the way, today is Si Ying's birthday!

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY, SI YING!
May all your dreams and wishes come true!

ok, guys! whee!! To see ALL the pictures on my birthday, go to www.photobucket.com/shazalyn ! whee! Thanks!

2008-07-09T18:08:00.004+08:00

Man! It has been an eventful week! HAHAH! On Monday, it was youth day! ((: And my mom allowed me to go for a class outing at East Coast Park! I felt a little weird at first because, I was the only one in scarf! But after awhile, I got used to it.. Anyway, Samuel, Shane and I decided to skate! And they are fantastic skaters! The rest decided to cycle.. except for Serena.. She wanted to run instead to save money.. hahah! Anyway, I was the slowest and Serena was JOGGING beside me.. Oops! I fell 3 times! And the last one was the hardest! I grabbed onto Serena but I spinned around her and fell on my right side! Ouch! Then Samuel called Serena, asking us where were we.. Hah! They were already at the jetty while we were only at the cable ski area.. hahah! So Serena and I decided to change shoes and Serena skated while I ran beside her.. Actually, I pulled her! HAH! We finally caught up with the rest and we went to this tower-looking structure.. Serena and I changed shoes again and now, it was my turn to skate.. We went up the tower and took a class photo! Cool! It was blazing hot so we quickly went down.. I skated down the slope..and straight into the bushes! Oh my god! So embarrassing! I just couldn't stop myself! Oh well.. Then Cherylnn and Suzanne took turns using my skates.. Then at one point, I almost collided with a cyclist! I lost my balance trying to avoid the cyclist but Teck Kian caught me! Thanks, Teck Kian! ((: Overall, It was a fantastic outing!

BUT the next day, I had a swollen neck! I couldn't turn my head at all! It was because of my last and hardest fall during the skating! I think when I fell on my side, the weight of my head was too heavy and it jerked to the side, straining my left neck muscle.. Anyway, on tues, my class was teasing me and kept calling my name.. Since I couldn't turn my neck, I had to turn my whole body and they found that hilarious! Hahah! So lame lar.. Oh well.. Anyway, it's much better now.. Just slightly aching.. (: YAY!

Anyway, it's Nabilah's birthday today!

HAPPY 17th Birthday, darling!

Have a wonderful birthday!

May all your dreams come true..

2008-07-04T21:11:00.004+08:00

Oh gosh.. This week was ABSOLUTELY horrendous! I got back all my papers except for GP, which will be next Tuesday! My results was.. *speechless* I have no words to describe it (and that's why my GP sucks!).. I have to work super hard if I want to get decent grades for Prelims and A's.. But I'm so exhausted with school already! AH! I have extra lectures everyday after school, except Monday.. Now, I normally reach home 5-6 pm and I'll be so exhausted and lethargic.. Gosh.. I don't know how I'm going to survive the next 8 weeks before study break starts in week 10.. Oh dear me.. sigh..

Well, I finally officially stepped down from Kayaking on Wednesday.. The new captain is Jerrold and vice-captain is Baohui! *applause!* Yay! Oh yes! Speaking about Baohui, I forgot to mention her as one of my juniors who made life better for me in TJ! She's such a sweetie.. And super cute.. HAHAH! But full of nonsense and crap lar! One crazy little girl! hahah! She totally rocks! :D

Religious classes this week was interesting.. Very funny! We started out with the Quran recital with everyone reading one verse of Surah Ali-Imran.. Then, I think my sis wasn't very fluent reading arabic coz she hasn't recited the Quran for quite some time.. So she made quite a few mistakes here and there.. She was shaking after that.. I think she was scared out of her wits.. poor thing.. Felt like a gush of empathy for her at that point of time.. sigh.. Anyway, after that, we did our Isyak prayers together (berjemaah).. And continue the class with this group work.. We had to work individually at first and come up with a list of what defines us as muslims.. My group mates said that my handwriting was type written and everything and called me a neat freak! Oh my god! hahah! Then my handwriting was quite small and all so the A4 paper was only half-filled! I made an origami heart and pasted it in the blank space.. We then collated all of our lists and pasted it on a piece of mahjong paper and sticked it onto the board.. There were 6 groups all together and we hads to do a gallery walk and critique on the rest of the groups' lists! After it was all over, I read the comments on my list! One of them said that I had to improve my handwriting! Oh my god! Irritating! Then another one said "can I have your number?" and wrote his number down! Hahah! It was hilarious! XD Funny people! Makes the world more interesting don't you think? *smiles*

Oh yes! On Tuesday, when break had ended, Serena and I were walking fron the library to our class venue.. It was a bright yet breezy day.. And suddenly, this feeling of belonging to the school engulfing me.. I realized that I had quite a few wonderful memories in TJ, memories I know I can't get in any other JCs.. And it was really nice and warm, I must admit.. The last time I had that feeling was when I was in Cedar.. (: It kept me happy the whole day.. YAY!

Alright.. I'll stop here for today.. (: It's been a really lengthy entry! Oops! Sorry! Live life to the fullest!

2008-06-28T14:32:00.003+08:00

hey hey!! Exams are over! YES! Whee!~ I just finished doing my friend's archive for his blog! Went mentally insane for a while cause i was so frustrated! I just couldn't get it right! It looked retarded! Then, I finally after like a million tries, I got it! Wow! I feel so so satisfied at the moment! hahah! yay! ok ok! Now I shall change my blog skin!! whee!! hahah! I know! I'm crazy.. ((; but I'm loving it!

2008-06-16T08:13:00.008+08:00

whoops! haven't been updating.. Shall tell you more about what happened over the last two days..

On Saturday, I went for my last wet training.. And sadly, there was only me and my junior Jerrold! We still continued with training.. ): I guess it's like a blessing.. Because we bonded.. (: And he just realized that I have a twin sister in vj! hahah! We crapped about alot of stuff and I found out that he isn't always bubbly and cheerful at times too.. I guess everyone puts on a mask in front of others.. a mask that will keep us safe and our real self hidden.. We put on a mask to please others, to be someone that they want us to be.. sigh.. Well, here are some pictures of me and Jerrold!

me on a kayak!

Jerrold and me!

Jerrold!

Saturday turned out to be a great day.. ((: love it!

On Sunday, KKH organised its 150th anniversary family day at the zoo! (: yup! my whole family went along with my cousins! great fun! If you're wondering why we were there, it's because my mom works as a staff nurse in KKH.. I love my cute little cousin! (: whee!

isn't she just so adorable?

I have so many things to say but so little time! hahah! Ok.. Just to give you a brief account of what happened.. There were a few activities held for the family day but kinda boring though After that, we walked round the zoo! wow! It has changed so so much! like a total makeover! hahah! OH! I remembered this incident! So unforgettable! hahah! I saw this monkey grabbed another monkey's hip from behind! I thought that they were going to fight for sure! Then guess what? I realised they were mating! hahah! oh my god! In broad daylight, for goodness sake! hahah! Ok.. I'll stop here and let the pictures tell the story.. As they say, pictures say a thousand words.. Therefore, for GP exams just hand in a picture! 1000 words is over the word limit! hahah! kidding! Here are the pictures! (:

Mybrother, cousin and little cute kangaroo in the background..

My brother, Hazeeq, as the elephant!

Look! My whole family had our name "wired"! hahah! and it was for free! whee!~

It's so hard to take a snaopshot for the both of them! They keep fidgeting! XD

It was a great weekend, I must say! Now, I shall mug for JCTs.. sigh.. So boring.... Hahah! I doubt I'll do well unlike someone! Right, Taufiq? Hahah! All the best for JCTs, people! Whee! See you guys in school again! ((: Especially you, Serena-na!

2008-06-13T09:15:00.003+08:00

Hey! I'm back! hahah! I'm so bored.. Well, actually I'm supposed to be studying.. *sheepish look* I promise I'll study after I post this! Someone close to me will be going off soon to somewhere (so secretive!) and I'll miss the person.. Sigh.. 4 lonely days! But it's okay! I still have my dear friends like syah and san.. ((: yay!

Believe it or not, I actually miss TJ! *shocked* oh my god! I'm going crazy! Argh! Someone, send me to the mental institute! Quick! Hahah! But it was really unexpected.. What I miss most are my fanstatic juniors.. Sitting around and laughing.. Dikir practice! Such jokers! *hugs all of you* I miss you guys... I'll see you guys soon ya? I'll really miss you guys when I graduate..

Okay okay! I better start studying if I want to graduate! hahah! BYE! ((:

2008-06-12T08:40:00.006+08:00

Whoa! I'm back! Waiting for slowpoke Taufiq.. Haiya.. He wants me to do up his OCIP blog but he hasn't given me the theme and the URL of the blog! I'd bet a million times that he is still asleep! Terrible Taufiq! TT! hahah! okay okay.. not funny.. I'm so lagging behind in my Econs! grr.. It's so so difficult to study econs.. Blehx! I keep on sleeping early.. at 12.. I just can't keep myself awake any longer that that! Argh! Maybe I should put toothpicks at my eyelids so everytime I fell sleepy, they will force it open! XD kidding! Which psychotic person would actually do that? It hurts like crazy! I'm sure there's an easier way! like drinking coffee! YAY!

Yesterday, my sis was super irritating! I'm livid! Argh! She kept on listening to my conversation with someone and then said, "I'm not going away! Your conversation with (the person's name) is so engaging!" There and then I knew she read me phone messages! She's invading my privacy! How would she like it if I did that to her! It's so unfair! After saying all that, she still had the cheek to give me a smug look! Because she knows I can't do anything about it.. ): Sigh.. Why can't I have a proper family who loves and respects me for who I am..

okay okay.. Shall give Taufiq a call now! and... He didn't pick up my call! I think even if there is a marching band in his room, he still wouldn't wake up! I'm going to strangle him when I see him.. Watch out, Taufiq.. Shall start studying first while waiting for Mr Sleepyhead to wake up from his Beauty sleep..

Here are some pictures of me!

So chubby right? ): So not cute!

I love this jumpshot!

Okay.. I shall continue waiting for Mr. Nonsense to wake up and start studying! Bye!

2008-06-11T14:12:00.012+08:00

Okay! I shall blog again! ((: I must IMPROVE my General Paper! Don't you just like this blogskin? When I saw it, I just fell in love with it... And the song is wonderful.. I just got reminded by my dear friend about the existence of this song..

Life in TJ.. Well, I don't dread it as much anymore.. Actually, I'm glad to be here.. I have such wonderful juniors.. (: Atiqah, Dinie, Izyan, Nadhirah, Atika D., Atiqah K., Nabilah, Syazwani, Farah, Waheedah, Hanee, Liyana (my darling!), Bazliyana (my dear!), Hasia, Syuhadah, Amira, Nadiah, Iqbal, Ni'mat, .. and last but not least, Taufiq.. ((: I love you guys so much!! You guys just flipped my whole entire life around! I never felt better!

Speaking of Taufiq...

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY, Taufiq! (:
May all your dreams and wishes come true..

Hope you had a fantastic birthday yesterday!

I enjoyed the trip to Peleggong so much! I miss Ibu, Ayah, Muhaizam and my dearest sister, Syuhadah.. I love you guys.. )': I felt like I had a family full of love and warmth.. That's all I'm asking for, mama and abah.. Love you guys too..

My lovely keluarga angkat (homestay family).. (:

Syuhadah! My wonderful sister! (: I love her to bits!

Syuhadah and me on the swing! (:

my dearest..

2008-04-11T21:46:00.002+08:00

I got an A for PW.. but Serena and Han Yang got a B.. )': My heart just broke when Mr Hsu told me that Serena got a B.. why her? sigh.. I was so scared to call her.. I just broke down.. Many thought that I got a B.. I mustered as much courage i could gather and called serena who was sick at home.. poor thing.. She was kind of disappointed.. but she accepted it..

Well, san got an A! yay! thank god.. i'm so happy! I guess it's God's reward for the both of us.. especially for the hardships we faced in our respective schools.. syukran, ya Allah.. (:

Life is a painful journey at the moment.. but with God's will, it'll get better..

2008-01-15T18:23:00.000+08:00

it's been so long since i last blogged.. well, it's the third week of school.. but i still dread school.. well actually more of tj.. I've finally established the kayaking club.. it feels kind of good.. but today was horrible.. there was a huge change in the timetable and i ended at 3 today, instead of 12.30.. i waited for the bus for 30 mins before bus 31 came! then when the bus came, it was so packed; the bus captain didn't even open the door! I was feeling so frustrated already! because..today was the day for H3 classes in TJ.. and so many VJ people dropped at the bus stop.. i felt as though the wound was cut opened all over again.. i felt so depressed.. even after a year in TJ, I still can't accept being in TJ.. and what's worse, some of the victorians ignored me, like darren.. sigh.. I feel hatred towards victorian because some seem so arrogant that they are in VJ and i'm in tj so they can't even be bothered to say hi. but at the same time i longed to be in VJ and be accepted again in the society..

I still feel outcast in TJ.. whether it's in MCS or class.. we had the J1 orientation for MCS and i've never felt so left out before.. The J1 were sticking as one clump and so were the TA3s.. sigh.. I was with Aishah and stuff but she was sociable so she could mix around with everyone.. sigh.. I'm ever so demoralized.. i really can't wait to do my A's and get out of the school.. I can't wait to start afresh..

2007-11-07T17:41:00.000+08:00

woo hoo! the kayaking club is finalised! hee hee! now i just need to find the cost and make booking for 1 star kayak.. (: yay! can't wait!! hahaha..

And for my internship at KKH, i'll be reporting from 9-4 pm from the 19th to the 23rd November.. whoa.. i must really plan my time if i wanna finish my homework.. phew..

My camp will start next tuesday.. can't wait! i'll doing natural rock climbing, white water rafting etc... hahah.. whee! so packed!! hahah!

shall update soon... (:

2007-11-06T14:33:00.000+08:00

hey.. i love my skin.. so i shall re open this blog!

hahah.. funny stuff.. so packed for the hols.. with camps.. internship at kkh.. whoo hoo! i got the internship! speaking of that, i have to email my mentor! oops! hahah!

and kayaking is on the way.. have to see mr fun tmr.. clear his queries.. yeahh..

ok people..

2007-11-02T20:58:00.000+08:00

hello people! this blog is officially dead..
bye bye.. if you wanna contact me, my email is flowergirl_twins@hotmail.com.